Wednesday, September 26, 2012

I am...

By this point in my life, I feel like I know a lot about myself and the person I am. I know there is more to learn as I continue to get older, gain more wisdom, and grow in my faith, but there are things about me that probably won't change.

I will never like conflict- I will avoid it at all costs- and procrastinate on issues that have "conflict" at work.
I get stressed out by money and my lack of it.
I am a dreamer. 
I've wanted to be a mom for as long as I can remember.
I feel like my mind is always thinking. 
I cry pretty easily. During songs, commercials, TV shows, movies, leaving "home", etc. And if I need a good cry, I know the movies to watch.
I'm not competitive. But sometimes...something lights my fire..and then you better watch out. :)
I need to create.
I don't like to disappoint people. It is my "good girl" complex.
I have a messy bedroom, but everything has its place in my closet. 
I do not like public speaking. My heart races. I fumble with words. 
I appreciate silence. 
I LOVE my family. And though it took me awhile to realize that we are kind of messed up, I still love them. And I am fiercely protective of those I love.

Most importantly, I love the Lord. And I know I am deeply and unconditionally loved by Him.
I can't imagine living life without knowing that He has it all under control. Despite my doubt and impatience and worry, He is always there waiting with His perfect plan. And that plan includes His peace. His peace that passes all understanding. And we do not need to understand. We may desperately want to, but God is taking care of it all so we don't need to.