I never make New Year's Resolutions...because let's face it, they won't happen. But this year I'm feeling a need to live with less stress and worry so I'm trying to trust God more. I have this idea in my head of what I want my life to be, but God has such a better plan for me. I need to let go of the "perfect world" I've dreamed up because it just lets me down. I'm not going to stop dreaming...but more of living in reality and trust in God. My life has certainly taken a different path than I ever expected. I never thought I would transfer colleges and start a whole new degree. It has been quite the ride and I'm ready to finish this last year out strong! The change has probably brought the most bumps in my road, but I'm ready to embrace them and see them more as a learning experience...instead of the negative way I used to see them.
So this year is all about trust for me. Trust in God that He will bring me where I need to be. Trust in myself that I have the skills and talent to succeed. Trust in my friends that they will be encouraging me along the way. Trust in my family that they will love me no matter what and will be there to help pick up the pieces.
I was flipping through my Bible last night and came across these verses that really seem to fit to my life right now.
"I waited patiently for the Lord; he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand. He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear and put their trust in the Lord. Blessed is the man who makes the Lord his trust, who does not look to the proud, to those who turn aside to false gods. Many, O Lord my God, are the wonders you have done. The things you planned for us no one can recount to you; were I to speak and tell of them, they would be too many to declare." Psalm 40:1-5
I can't say that I was patient...but God is the patient one. Waiting for us to realize how much we need him. Daily. Hourly.